Have you ever..
1) Self harmed? … Yes
2) Got into a real fight? … No
3) Been too depressed to move out of your bed? … Yes
4) Tried to commit suicide? … Yes
5) Had to lie to EVERYONE about how you felt? … Yes
6) Watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting? … Yes
7) Talked yourself out of serious trouble? … Yes
8) Accused someone of using you? … No
9) Shoplifted? … When I was little, I stole a cremé egg for my mum. Bad ass.
10) Gotten drunk/high? … Drunk, yes. High, no
11) Been to a concert where your favourite artist was playing? … Nope
12) Skipped doing homework to play a video game? … Kinda
(Right now) Are you:
13) Suicidal? … Sort of
14) Bored? … Yes
15) Avoiding someone? … Yeah
16) Avoiding some task? … As always
17) Depressed? … I guess
18) Crying? … Just finished
19) Annoyed with a friend? … Yeah
20) Worried and confused about something important to you? … Yup
Do you:
21) Get depressed easily? … Yeah haha
22) Get jealous/envious easily? … Yup
23) Feel listening to music can take your mind off things? … Sometimes
24) Worry about messing about your relationships a lot? … Always
25) Try hard in all your classes at school? … Lolno, given up on school
26) Go out drinking? … Sometimes
27) Smoke cigarettes? … Again, sometimes
28) Smoke weed? … Nope, not yet
29) Do any hard drugs? … Nah
30) If you said yes to 28 but no to 29, Why? … I didn’t >.>
31) Believe in God/Belong to a religion of your own free will? … Idk/No
32) Avoid people you care about because you feel you will only hurt them? … Yeah
33) Agree that self harm numbs emotional pain? … Yes
34) Believe people deserve second chances? … Depends I guess, usually
35) Agree with ‘An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth’? (ignoring the religious relation to that saying) … Idk really
36) Think things will get better? … Nope
37) Feel afraid that you have done wrong and will eventually be punished? … Yeah
38) (be honest) Do you judge people who think differently to you? (seriously, be honest) … Rarely, but yeah
Preference in boyfriend/girlfriend:
39) Long hair OR short hair? … Short hair
40) (For Girls one) nice smile OR nice abs? … Nice smile
41) (For Guys one) nice smile OR nice chest? … >.>
42) Shy OR open? … Shy is cute
43) Eyes OR body? … Eyes
44) Religious OR non-religious? … Don’t mind, but I guess non-religious
45) Caring OR non-restricting of you? … Caring
46) Straight edge OR non-straight edge? … Wut?
47) Piercings OR no piercings? … Doesn’t bother me, though piercings can be cool
48) Tattoos OR no tattoos? … Same as above ^
49) Quiet stay-at-home type OR party type? … Ahh, I don’t know, bit of both? D:
50) Has friends you get along with OR has parents you get along with? … Both o-o
Would you:
51) Drink alcohol until you were drunk? … Duh
52) Smoke weed? … Possibly
53) Smoke cigarettes? … Yes
54) Get even with someone who betrayed you? … Depends
55) Forgive a boyfriend/girlfriend who deeply hurt you? … Yeah
56) Attempt to kill yourself if everything fails you? … Yup
57) Keep your faith (any religious view) no matter what? … Idk
58) Join a band as a part time activity? … No because I have no musical talent lmao
59) Feel sorry for someone who is being affected negatively from alcohol/drug abuse? … Of course
60) Stand up for your beliefs if someone strongly goes against them? … Depends
61) Go vegetarian for a month to see what is was like? … Yeah
62) Fight someone who was harassing your friends/family? … Idk :/
63) Edit photos of yourself before posting them online? … Idk
64) Put up with friends who constantly hated against something you believed in/supported? … Depends what it was
65) Be friends with someone who was nice to you, but a cunt to other people? … Maybe
66) Not like someone simply because your friend(s) didn’t like them? … :/ Have done
67) Lie to someone close to you because you don’t want them put up with your problems? … Yes ._.
68) Starve yourself so you fit some certain clothes? … Haaa, yes
69) Get surgery on any part of you? If yes then which part of you? … Yes, every part
70) Sleep naked? … Yeah?
You can only choose one:
71) Black or Orange? … Black
72) Metalcore OR Post-Hardcore? … Idk o.o
73) Cellphone or Computer? … Computer
74) Chocolate milk OR Coke? … Coke
75) Tumblr OR Friends? … Friends
76) Apple OR PC? … PC
77) TV Shows OR Movies? … Movies
78) Old bands OR new Bands? … Idk, old
79) Pop-Punk OR Alternative Rock? … Pop-Punk
80) Reading OR Listening to music? … Listening to music
81) Coke OR Pepsi? Define your reason for your choice … Coke, Pepsi is ew
82) Staying who you are OR changing yourself drastically? … Changing drastically
83) Breakdown OR Clean vocal bridge? … Breakdown
84) Jonny Craig OR Kellin Quinn? Define your reason for your choice … Who? o.O
85) Ronnie OR Craig? Define your reason for your choice … Idk
86) Your life as a comedy OR Your life as a documentary? … Comedy since my life’s a joke lmao
87) Go to outer space OR Go all around Europe? … Outer space, ftw.
88) Shoes OR Shirts? … Shoes
89) Chelsea Grin OR Suicide Silence? … What?
90) Drop out of school to get a job OR stay at school and finish your education. Define your reason for your choice … Stay at school - don’t want to be seen as a drop-out
Almost over:
91) So far have you told 90 truths? And for fuck sake be honest … Lol, yeah
92) Are you quiet about your social life with your family? … Yes
93) Do you want to travel when you are older? … Yeah
94) Would you let go of people who mean the most to you to follow your dreams? … Doubt it
95) Did you notice there are no sex related questions? … Not until now
96) Rather be the opposite gender? … Fuck yeah
97) What will you name your son/daughter? … Idk, something unusual.
98) Do you get harassed more than most people do? … Idk
99) What band do you hate the most? Define your reason … Don’t HATE any bands
100) What makes you a bad person in your mind? … If you mean personally, then everything about me
Such a disgusting being in this photo, it actually makes me feel sick and repulsed looking at it. What makes it worse, is that the monster looks so much worse in rl.
… Sometimes, I just wish I could just rip my face off or something. Not even getting started on fatness.
One of those nights.
It’s 01:35am, and I’m crying my eyes out. I feel so awful, so unwanted, so useless, like a mistake. I don’t know what to do any more, it’s pointless for me to carry on like this - it’s really not worth it. It’s not like I have much to look forward to in life - even if there is, the negatives outweigh any positives. I’m scared, I don’t want to do this any more. I just want everything to stop, for the pain to go away, for the future to never come. I want it to end. My life isn’t valued in the slightest, it’s not like I have a reason to go through all this.
Please, God, I’m begging. Give me the strength to end everything.
